Wednesday, October 24, 2007

The look of love

OK. Just a warning, this is going to be a bit of a sappy post. I don't usually write, talk or think this way but .....

This afternoon I had a splitting headache and sudden fever. Needless to say, I felt rotten, and when I gave Aaron his 5pm feed, I think milk supply was almost zero. He struggled to get what he needed and protested a little but in the end he gave up and just stood up. He's now eye to eye with me when he's standing and I'm sitting. I said to him that I wasn't feeling very well and I apologized for the low milk supply.

He looked me straight in the eye and used one of his little hands to touch my face. All at once, with that one look, I felt him communicate to me that he's ok and that he felt bad that I wasn't well. It was surreal! I am sure this wasn't my fever talking or me imagining it. He really did give me such a look of understanding.

He then snuggled down on my lap for a bit of a cuddle. Perhaps his way of comforting me? Unfortunately, the moment was broken when one of the local hawkers walked by outside with a whistle and he quickly toddled off to take a look.

I'll never forget the look he gave me. It really melted my heart and made me forget all the discomfort I was in. The fever is gone now but all I want to do is snuggle up with him.

I wonder if one day he will hurt me as much as he has moved me today....maybe when he's a teenager? Who knows? I'll just cherish today for what it was.


Bilbo said...

What a great story! It reminds me of a day I'll always remember when we were on a picnic and I was lying on the grass staring up at the sky and my younger son Matt toddled over and laid down on top of me, put his head on my chest, and went to sleep. It was the most wonderful feeling! Of course, Matt is now in his 30's and about 6 inches taller than I am, so we can't cuddle like that any more. But you're right - someday when things between you and Aaron are not so loving, you will look back on this day to regain your sense of perspective. Hope you feel better. Bilbo.

Surfergirl said...

im glad you guys are back safely. that was such a heartwarming moment. aaron really is a wonder. we're all missing him here.

baby~amore' said...

Oh how beautiful is Aaron. These precious moments will be etched in your heart and mind , special memories ... write it down for the awkward years - yes at 14 yrs I know there is alot of misunderstanding and bringing stories of love back can mend a hurt.
Hope you are feeling better.

John said...

Great story, Amanda. you'll end up with a heart full of such memories.

Jean-Luc Picard said...

It was a good day for being a mother.

Amanda said...

Thanks for all the wonderful comments. I love hearing about what people with grown children have to say.

Serina Hope said...

That is so sweet.
Mushy can be good too.
I hope that you are feeling better.
Who knew that we could get each other sick over the internet?