OK. Just a warning, this is going to be a bit of a sappy post. I don't usually write, talk or think this way but .....
This afternoon I had a splitting headache and sudden fever. Needless to say, I felt rotten, and when I gave Aaron his 5pm feed, I think milk supply was almost zero. He struggled to get what he needed and protested a little but in the end he gave up and just stood up. He's now eye to eye with me when he's standing and I'm sitting. I said to him that I wasn't feeling very well and I apologized for the low milk supply.
He looked me straight in the eye and used one of his little hands to touch my face. All at once, with that one look, I felt him communicate to me that he's ok and that he felt bad that I wasn't well. It was surreal! I am sure this wasn't my fever talking or me imagining it. He really did give me such a look of understanding.
He then snuggled down on my lap for a bit of a cuddle. Perhaps his way of comforting me? Unfortunately, the moment was broken when one of the local hawkers walked by outside with a whistle and he quickly toddled off to take a look.
I'll never forget the look he gave me. It really melted my heart and made me forget all the discomfort I was in. The fever is gone now but all I want to do is snuggle up with him.
I wonder if one day he will hurt me as much as he has moved me today....maybe when he's a teenager? Who knows? I'll just cherish today for what it was.